The dire need to pack and prepare myself to move
has turned me into a complete crazy,
so Phil and I took off to the lake to chill and get away
from the mess that is my house
and my overwhelming load of possessions,
all of which need to be donated,
sold, and maybe the special things stored away.
It's come to this- - this being that we can't afford
and will probably be better off
taking only what we can fit in our little cars.
Clothes, books, dishes, and some keepsakes
are all I guess I can bring along...
I'm sure in the long run it will be best to start fresh,
but right now it's all freaking me out
and making me depressed.
I obviously do not handle change well.
I hope this turns out to be a good learning experience,
one that makes me realize
that all of this negative energy i'm spewing out
is only crippling me - now and forever.
I've got to shake this funk real soon
before it gets the best of me.